| With no grain to sell and no rents to collect, she was going
to lose money this yearThe knowledge bothered her, because she
had
a] ways made money in business and losing it was a highly
disagreeable
changeBut Scarlett had grown up in a world where it was accepted
that sometimes a crop failed or a storm wrought havocShe knew
that
next year would be different, and certainly betterShe was not a
failure because of the disaster of the drought and the hailIt wasn't
like the lumber business or the store where she would have been
responsible if there had been no profitBesides, the losses would
barely make a dent in her fortunecould be extravagant for the rest
of her life, and the fake louis vuitton bags crops at hara could fail every year, and she
would still have plenty of money Scarlett sighed unconsciouslyFor so
many years she worked and scrimped and saved, thinking that if only
she
could I enough money, she would be happy
Now she had it, thanks Rhett, and somehow it didn't mean anything at
allExcept that t was no longer anything to work for, to scheme and
strive forShe wasn't foolish enough to want to be poor and despei
again, but she needed to be challenged, to use her quick" to conquer
obstaclesAnd so she thought with longing about jumping fences and
ditches and taking chances on a powerful horse she controlled by force
of willWhen the accounts were done, Scarlett turned to pasha cartier watches blue face the pile
personal mail with a silent groanShe hated writing lettersShe
ready knew what was in the mailMany were invitationsShe them in
a
stackharriet could pen the polite refusals for her, no would know
she hadn't written them herself, and harriet loved usefulThere were
two more proposalsScarlett received at least weekThey pretended
to be love letters, but she knew very well they wouldn't be there if
she wasn't a rich widow
Most of them, anyhowShe replied to the first one with the
convenient
phrases about "honored by your regard" and "unable to return your
affection to the degree you merit" and "place incalculable value on
your friendship" that protocol demanded and suppliedThe very cheap chanel bags second
was
not so easyIt was from Charles Ragland
Of all the men she had met in Ireland, Charles was the most truly
eligible to herHis adoration was convincing, not at all like the
elaborate fawning over her that so many men didhe wasn't after her
money, she was sure of thathe came from money himself, his people
were big landowners in Englandhe was a younger son, and he'd
chosen
the army instead of the ChurchBut he must have some money of
his own
His dress uniform cost more than all her ball gowns put together, she
was sureWhat else? Charles was handsome
Ne was as big as Rhett, only blond instead of darkNot washed-out
blond, though, like so many fair peopleHis hair was gold, omega mens watch on sale with just
a touch of red in it, startling against his tanned skinNe was really
very good lookingWomen looked at him like they could eat him with
a
spoonSo why didn't she love him? She had thought about it, she'd
thought often and longBut she couldn't, she didn't care enoughI
want to love somebodyI know how it feels to love, it's the best
feeling in the worldI can't bear the unfairness, that I learned
about loving too lateCharles loves me, and I want to be loved, I
need itI'm lonely by myself without it
Why can't I love him? Because I love Rhett, that's whyThat's why
for Charles and for every other man in the worldThey're none of
them
RhettYou will never have Rhett, her mind told fake vintage chanel wallet he |
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